Living with addiction

Most of us don’t have the kind of addictions you hear about on the news, the ones celebrities get sent to rehab for, the ones recognized as life altering or capable of destroying families and ruining lives. No, our addictions are more subtle and, you might argue, even inconsequential: caffeine, tobacco, or sugar.

“Did she really just say sugar?,” you might be asking. Yep, that’s what I said. And not only did I suggest that sugar is an addiction, I’m going to further argue that sugar is actually a dangerous, life-altering kind of addiction that you might want to learn to control. Before you roll your eyes and sign off, give me a chance.

First, is sugar a drug? Ask yourself these questions: Do you crave it? Do you feel compelled to eat a cookie or have a muffin or drink a coffee mocha more than you, say, want broccoli or lentils or some other delicious vegetable or protein source? We all know the answer is yes. Next, does it alter your mood? Do you feel better after having it? Do you get a little rush, feel a little happier, experience a little zing? If you won’t be honest on that one for yourself, look at what sugar does to your kids. For every child I’ve known, there is a marked difference in behavior before sugar and after sugar. The only reason you don’t bounce off the ceiling after sugar is that your body is more accustomed to metabolizing it, particularly if you eat it regularly. And Americans eat a lot of it, even when we don’t intend to. Manufacturers have loaded sugar into packaged foods, including those that claim to be healthy, in the form of glucose, sucrose, fructose and the notorious high fructose corn syrup (HFCS).

Now you might be saying, “Kate, there’s a difference between ingesting sugar and being addicted to it.” You’re right, there is. It’s a matter of degree. Do you know how much sugar you eat? According to the US Department of Agriculture, the average American consumes 156 pounds of sugar per year! No wonder we’re fat! Sugar and sugar substitutes are in everything these days: cereal, bread, crackers, frozen meals, sauces, ketchup, flavored “water” and other beverages; you name it. Read the labels in your pantry and fridge. Now that you’ve noticed, can you stop eating sugar? Try it. Go 24 hours without consuming any sugar. That’s right, zero sugar. Can you do it? What about for one week? Two or three servings of fresh fruit per day (not juice) are okay, but that’s it. How do you feel? If you can last one week without sugar and still feel great, congratulations! Looks like you’re in the clear. If you can’t last one week, feel like crap, or are fussing at everyone who crosses your path, welcome to the sugar addict club.

Two years ago, I never would have admitted to being a sugar addict. And yet, looking back, I now see that I was. I had a bowl of ice cream most evenings, I ate according to my cravings, and my diet included packaged foods that assured me they were healthy, but that I now know contain hidden sugar. I was overweight and frustrated, although I told myself that I was doing everything I could to “be good.”

All of that changed when Brian and I took a healthy eating workshop with Damon Miller, MD, a board-certified physician and naturopathic doctor in Palo Alto. Through the class, we participated in a detox program to first remove common food allergens from our diet and then add them back, assessing how those foods impacted our physical and mental health.

We learned a lot about how our bodies interact with food during the process, which I may share in a future post. What’s relevant now is that we both realized that we have a negative reaction to sugar. Brian has an allergy-like response, including mouth and ear itching. I occasionally show similar symptoms, but more frequently get a minor headache and cotton mouth. The main difference for me is that if I have too much sugar, I start to crave more. And if I deny myself or feel deprived, “Sugar Demon” emerges.

According to Brian, Sugar Demon is “snarly, moody, angered by everything, satisfied by nothing, desiring of addictive treats and self-loathing for wanting them. I don’t like her much at all,” he says, “and I want my real wife back.” He adds that, when I had sugar more regularly, the cause and effect wasn’t clear: Some days I was calm and sweet; some days I was irritable. Now that I’m away from sugar most of the time, the cause and effect has become much more apparent.

Another byproduct of sugar I didn’t understand before the workshop is its ability to alter my “hungry” and “full” signals. For much of my life, I’ve had trouble distinguishing between hunger and craving. I blame growing up in the low-fat age, when healthy fats were reviled and all of our diets became ladened with sugar as a flavor substitute. What I’ve since learned is that there is a big difference between the craving signal and the hungry signal. When you’re hungry, for example, your stomach actually rumbles. It’s not just that you feel like eating or feel nauseated from low-blood sugar. Lightbulb moment, huh? Maybe not for all of you, but it was profound for me. Refined sugars, particularly HFCS, have also been shown to block hormonal signals that tell us we’re full, causing us to eat more than we need. Of course, food manufacturers are happy about this. It leads to more consumption. In fact, despite significant evidence of the dangers of HFCS and resulting bad press, its producers are petitioning for a name change instead of removing it from our diets.

You may think you’re being good by drinking diet soda, eating low-fat or even choosing “sugar-free” items, but you’d generally be wrong. Studies show that just one soda per day, either full sugar or diet, is linked with weight gain. Many low-fat or “sugar-free” products contain sugar substitutes that mirror the body’s physiological response to sugar. When it comes to healthy eating, it’s buyer beware.

I think I’ve proven the addictive quality of sugar and some of the byproducts of sugar addiction, but you may still be skeptical about how serious a health risk it really is. Although the media and some doctors still blame fat for our nation’s three most-common disease-related deaths—heart disease, cancer and diabetes—studies dating as far back as the 1960s show that sugar is the real culprit. I think the linked article is sufficient evidence of why you should care, but if not, how about my anecdotal support.

We don’t have a scale on the road, but I know I’m currently at my lowest weight since college. I’m shrinking out of my clothes, my arms and face are thinner, and you can see my collar bones for the first time since 1995. I also have fewer problems with moodiness, feel less stressed and healthier, except when I consume sugar. I still have occasional battles with sugar—after all, we can’t always eat perfectly while traveling—but each one furthers my resolve to be strong. I’ve noticed all kinds of side effects from sugar since becoming more aware, including swelling and a direct correlation between eating sugar and decreased immune function. But don’t take my word for it! I’m not a doctor, registered dietitian or nutritionist.

Even Dr. Miller encourages you to try out a detox program for yourself and come to your own conclusions. If you’re interested, Ann Louise Gittleman’s Fat Flush Plan is a good book. I also enjoyed Beat Sugar Addiction Now! by Jacob Teitelbaum, MD, whom I met in Hawaii.

I would love to hear your thoughts. Are you a sugar addict? Did you know HFCS was in tons of packaged food items? Have you tried one-day or one-week sugar detoxes? How did it go?

My Pillars of Happiness » KateWatson.net - […] Hubby and I took a healthy eating workshop in 2009. It started with an elimination diet, where we removed common allergens from our diet for several weeks and then examined how we felt as we added them back slowly and methodically. From the workshop, the hubs determined that he has a dairy sensitivity (this has subsequently been verified by testing) and I determined that eating refined sugar was painful. […]

Kate - Hi Gwyn: It sounds like you’re already doing great! Good luck with the next step. A square of dark chocolate every once in a while won’t hurt you. 🙂

Gwyn - We try to eat healthy in our house. I read the labels on everything or almost everything that comes in the house and try to avoid everything with HFCS, and hydrogenated oils. I haven’t had a soda in over four years and don’t miss it. Labor Day weekend I decided to avoid all fried foods. I’ll be honest, I miss potato chips, but we make baked ones in the oven that are pretty good. I think I should try to avoid sugar next. I love chocolate. It will be hard.

Kate - Thanks, Sherry! Isn’t it strange that healthy foods like raw vegetables are more expensive than pre-cooked fast food in the States? That’s why obesity is such a problem in poorer neighborhoods. I think sugar can be had in moderation once you break the cycle of addiction, but I still tend to avoid it most of the time. PS, Cute photo on FB!

Sher - Very good article Kate. I’m addicted to sugar, and when I have the money for the right foods, I can avoid it better but nowadays . . . . I stayed away completely for 6 weeks when I did my Slim in 6 program. Well, that’s a lie – I had one jelly bean and in group that night (Substance Abuse group), I owned up to it.

Kate - Hi Patricia: We had heard that about sugar in our healthy eating class as well. I look forward to the days when I no longer crave sugar. How long did it take before that happened for you? Happy Holidays!

Kate - I completely agree, Jen! Although there is plenty of sugar to be found in New Zealand and Australian foods, at least we don’t have to worry about pure “evil.” Thanks for your comment!

Skmrorer - Unfortunately, all of what you say is true and I can’t remember when I didn’t have sugar in my diet 24/7 and believe you me my body knows it. I’m a whopping 158 lbs and wish I was back to my 125 in the good ole days, ah, youth. Maybe while I’m there I can get back some of my former days. Let’s try.

Prlasen - As a cancer survivor who was treated with both traditional and non-traditional methods, I learned that sugar feeds cancer. I gave it up for good and fortunately for me I don’t crave sugar any more, in fact, I don’t like anything sweet any more. Maybe to my detriment, even fruit is too sweet for me. Of all the changes I made after having cancer, I believe the one best thing I did was give up sugar.

Jen Muehlbauer - HFCS is referred to as “Evil” in our house, as in, “read the ingredients list to make sure it doesn’t have Evil in it.” It’s SO much easier to eat right (in general) outside the US.

Happy Thanksgiving from Down Under

Happy Thanksgiving from the Watsons! Taken in New Zealand @ Wanaka Lake

Although Aussies aren’t celebrating today, we thought we’d take the opportunity to wish a very happy Thanksgiving to our friends and family back home and to spend a few moments giving thanks ourselves. Today, we are especially thankful for:

  • Getting to spend most of every day, for the last 240 days, with each other
  • The time, funds and commitment to take a round-the-world trip together
  • The stock market going up, even as the U.S. dollar tanks
  • Friends and family who keep in touch (and sometimes Skype!) while we’re on the road
  • New friends we meet along the way
  • A healthy body that can walk 8-10 miles, or in Brian’s case, run more than 13
  • The health, safety and happiness of our loved ones
  • Knowing that we can go home again, whenever we’re ready
  • Time and inclination to work on our top secret business projects 😉
  • Reliable Internet access
  • E-book readers and other forms of portable electronics that make our lives easier and more fun on the road
  • Warm weather and hot showers, especially after spending a few days without either
  • Fruit smoothies and good Thai food (can’t wait until Thailand!)
  • Clean drinking water and flushing toilets
  • Soap, which Brian says is the greatest invention since fire
  • Yoga
  • Art classes and artists who want to share their work with us
  • People who take the time to comment on the blog. Thank you for making me feel like someone out there is occasionally reading these posts!

What are you thankful for today?

Have a happy, blessed day,

P.S. While today and the holidays as a whole are about appreciating the gifts we have, they are also about where we’re at and where we’d like to be on our personal journeys through life. In that vein, I just read a beautiful, heartfelt post that I simply had to share. I strongly encourage you to pop over and read it because it’s an important and timely message, delivered in a deeply moving way.

Kate - Thanks, Will! How are things going back at home?

Will D. - Yeah! You go Watsons! Hope you guys are having a lot of fun!

Kate - Ah, thanks, Mom! I am thankful for both of those too. Love you!

Skmrorer - LOVE ALL OF THE THOUGHTFUL THANKSGIVING THOUGHTS – I KNOW I HAVE BUNCHES BUT JUST HAVEN’T HAD TIME TO THINK ABOUT THEM. I DO KNOW ONE AND THAT’S THAT I’M SO GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL THAT YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER AND THAT YOU HAVE SELECTED A FANTASTIC PERSON TO SHARE YOUR LIFE WITH.

Kate - Thanks, Terry! Good to hear from you.

Anonymous - Happy Thanksgiving to you guys as well. We miss you both!

West Coast of NZ’s South Island in Pictures

New Zealand’s West Coast, near Punakaiki

The weka, one of New Zealand’s many flightless birds. Often confused with the kiwi, we hear, it looks nothing like it and is diurnal.

Our first sighting of the Southern Alps

Makarora, the first place we stayed where we looked around and said, “Wow!” Let the real beauty begin…

Lake Wanaka, en route to Queenstown

Lake Hawea, also en route to Queenstown. Look at the scale of it all!

Cheers,

Art adventures: Jade carving

One of the activities I looked forward to in New Zealand was jade carving. I found out about the opportunity shortly after arriving when a girl in our first lodge showed me a beautiful pendant she’d made. As Stray had a jade-carving activity available during the West Coast leg of our travels, I decided to sign up.

Carving day started relatively early as we had to be finished and on the road to our next destination by 12:30. Barrytown carver, Hamish, picked up fellow traveler, Sarah, and me at 8am and drove us to his nearby workshop with views of the Western coast range. He asked what we wanted to make and I pulled out my adventurous sketches. “Those will take you a week,” he said. “We’ve only got four hours.”

He steered me toward carving a simple double loop, popular in Maori carvings as a symbol of infinity or the bonding of two lives. I immediately decided that I would give my carving to Brian and we got to work. Starting with a centimeter-thick piece of jade, Hamish drew out a rough pattern for me. First step, drill out the center holes. New Zealand jade (also called pounamu) is so strong that the Maori used it for hatchet blades and other weapons; as a result, it must be cut with diamond-coated tools.

After drilling the center holes, I began shaping the outside curves using a large sander under running water. Although I’d known that jade work had to be done using water — the white powder it produces during sanding and shaping is toxic — it is somewhat strange to use electric tools in water.

For the next several hours, I shaped and ground, and shaped and ground, and my piece began looking more and more like a double loop. Unfortunately, as the shape came into being, I became more paranoid about screwing it up and got slower and more cautious. Hamish often stepped in to keep me on track with finishing the pendant in time, and to smooth out any errors I’d made. I asked him how long a similar pendant would take him and he said about an hour and a half. Wow!

Our four-and-a-half hours ran out quickly. At the end, I did three quick polishing rounds with different grades of diamond-coated sandpaper and then Hamish rubbed on some oil and strung it on an adjustable black cord. Voilà! Brian’s necklace was done. I can’t say I’ll undertake another carving project anytime soon, but it was an interesting experience to have at least once.

I presented Brian’s necklace to him as soon as we arrived back at camp. When I’d visited Ghana last fall, I’d gotten Brian a necklace per his request, but he had ultimately decided he couldn’t wear it because the “energy felt weird.” I was therefore somewhat trepidatious about the jade carving, but he says it feels great and has been wearing it ever since. Success! I love looking at it on him, both because I think it looks nice and because I’m proud that, little mistakes and all, I actually made it.

It turns out that carving this piece for Brian instead of myself worked out really well. I have since tried on his necklace, and the energy of the New Zealand jade/greenstone feels weird to me. I didn’t notice when working with it, but it was immediately noticeable when hanging around my neck. Isn’t it interesting that something that works so well for my husband doesn’t work for me at all?

Have you ever had trouble wearing a piece of jewelry because of how it felt? Why do you think that was?

Thanks,
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Kate - Thanks, Penny. Great info!

Penny4em - Maori tradition is such that any ‘Jade’ pendant you buy or in this case make, should be a gift to another. Someone else would need to make you a pendant or give you one for you to feel comfortable wearing it.